Wow it’s been a long time since my last blog. A LOT has happened. My worst fear came to pass this week and I have been made redundant, gone, binned, hung out to dry and so forth. It was a hugely difficult time for me on the run up to doomsday. Three of us were going for two jobs and whad’ya know I was the one that missed out.
After that I still had to turn up for two weeks and show my face. all the while cringing inside, desperately worried for what was to come (where the money was coming from and how the hell can I support my family). On my last day, I turned up went through the motions, handed all my stuff back in and then just slunk off. I was too miserable to say goodbye to most people and to be honest to ashamed and embarrassed to be the only one without a job. I did get a leaving gift which I was surprised about, a voucher, that will go nicely towards an Xbox game to cheer myself up.
The rest of the day was weird and a bit miserable too. But I was shocked to wake up this morning (2 days later), to feel like a huge weight has been lifted off me, and I have lots of new opportunities to pursue. I hadn’t realised just how much the job had changed over the years, and how far away from youth work people had let the service drift. So I am updating my CV, looking around for new opportunities and feeling quite positive about the whole experience. Like I have been set free.
Okay, so there is still an element of worry there, as we only have enough money to last about three months, so I need to find work quick but that’s okay, everything will be okay. I know I have people around me that care (and at the moment constantly send me job advertisements).
Truth-be-told, I think that I had fallen out of love with the job, it was never clearly defined what it should be. It started off perfect but after a few years and a few changes of management it was battered into a shape it should never had been, and squeezed into space that it didn’t really fit into.
I still love youth work and feel I need to get back to the traditional universal club atmosphere. To keep my skills up and to complete my degree. But other than that I have an opportunity to explore what I want, maybe even diversify into a totally different field. Who knows?
All I know is that the future is looking okay for now and I hope to keep you all up to date with my different goings on over this strange time.